"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear...." I realized today, upon receiving disappointing news, that I am living in fear ... not God's plan for me ... not God's plan for any of us. In any case, please pray for God to fill me with his peace ... as it is exhausting to live in fear.

No, no, nothing BIG ... it's just that Chuck must make another trip to BIG Baylor = an ambulance ride across the street. It's just that the ambulance ride may mean more damage to the skin on his back. He needs to go for a test to rule out bowel obstruction (pretty serious). I realized today ... I cannot protect him. It breaks my heart ... I keep thinking ... if I just stay by his side, I'll be able to shield him from possible infection, possible obstruction, possible pneumonia. Alas, I've not been able to shield him from anything. God is speaking to me ... trying to get me to turn control over to him. Please pray for me as I try to let God control this.

Please pray for the two of us ... for Chuck's health, for my struggle to release control.