Okay...back to deep sorrow and deep loneliness...which makes last night's episode even more precious.

Here I am...feeling completely isolated and alone...deep loneliness...the kind that doesn't get filled up by being with people...the kind that is persistent no matter where I am or who I'm with...and the thought occurred to me...I'm in the pains of labor. I remember this feeling when Chuck died...thinking, "I trust this...I trust this path. I trust this pain. I trust what is happening. I trust God to use this for good." I thank God for these moments of clarity...to hold on...to push...to wait for the joy that arrives once labor is complete.